I finally did it guys! I’ve set up my blog. Properly this time. I have been saying for a couple of years now that I will set up a blog, but have never got round to actually doing it. I have set up two blogs in the past for academic use, I just didn’t have the courage to create a personal one I could share with you.There have been a couple of reasons for this, and I’m going to go through some of them in detail. I’m also going to give reasons as to why I’m doing this now, at this stage and period of my life. I’m hoping it will going you inside into a little bit about me and what I’m all about.
WHY I PUT OFF STARTING A BLOG:
- FEAR: This is one of the mains reasons I’ve backed out of doing a lot of thing to be honest. I was scared about how I would come across. I was scared about letting people see into my mind through my writing. I was scared about the actual writing part. Would I word things right? What do I even talk about? I was scared of the judgement I might get because of posts.
- DISTRACTIONS: Life. People. Finances. University deadlines. The irony about this is that I was a creative writing student who didn’t use one of the main tools for gaining experience (blogging and sharing work online) because I was too busy worrying about the academic side of things. It made me lose motivation to write for pleasure.
- SELF-DOUBT: It goes hand in hand with my fears. I’d see people posting and sharing their blog posts on social media and immediately start comparing myself. “Wow, this person is so intelligent” “they write beautifully” “I wouldn’t be able to do something like that.” The negative voice in my head would be a lot louder that the positive voice. It always won out.
WHY I DECIDED TO START A BLOG NOW:
- TO CONQUER FEAR & SELF DOUBT: This is not something that can’t be beaten overnight and it takes a lot of hard work. Writing, knowing that other people can see it and scrutinise every word, is a terrifying concept. I am essentially letting people into my life through my writing. I am unique and my journey is different and I think it’s time I shared that. I might have the same opinion on a subject as somebody else but, the way I articulate that may be different. My problem was/is I am fearful about things that haven’t even happened yet. I realise that I have nothing to lose.
- TO REDISCOVER MY LOVE OF WRITING: Over the last couple of months, I have lost the motivation for writing and everything that comes with it. I listed distractions as a reason for putting this off and it is really one of the reasons why I lost why I enjoyed writing in the first place. Life comes at you thick and fast. One moment your and 16 year old with big dreams of being a journalist, the next you’re a 23 year graduate who finds writing a chore. Even as I’m writing this, the satisfaction of saying what I want to say on paper (well on a screen) is giving me a rush that I had forgotten. But yeah, this is one of the many ways I have decided to get back into my passion.
- FOR THERAPY: Most of you don’t know this but, I’ve been a health and wellbeing creative writing workshop facilitator for 2 years. It was supposed to be a one off 10 week placement that went towards for 2 year final grade but it ended up being one of the most amazing, challenging and rewarding experiences of uni. Working with a health and wellbeing organisation in Crewe, my job was to share different writing techniques with the women that came to the sessions in the hope that it will help them to process their thoughts and feelings better on paper (I’ll explain in more depth in later blog post). I was such an advocate for putting “pen to paper” and the significance of it, knowing that I wasn’t practicing what I preached. The impact I had on these women and the impact writing had on them too made me remember why it is important to do write my thoughts down. Now I want to use this as my platform. So, I’m having a good day, I”ll write it down. If I read a really good book, I’ll write about it. If I’m annoyed, best believe you’ll hear about it! This is where I want to be a transparent as possible in the hopes it will help my mental health and personal growth.
As mentioned, I am going to be getting personal and sharing opinions on a variety of topics, my culture, my university experience, family, religion, books, films, TV shows… the lot! Bearing that in mind , try and respect my thoughts and opinions, you don’t have to agree with them but it’s good to be open to other people’s thought processes.And that’s it for now folks, I’ll be aiming to post at least twice a week (setting myself a personal goal)Thanks for joining me as I take this journey! Stay tuned!
Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton