These past two weeks have been an array of different emotions and thought processes. I didn’t know how much the change in the environment would affect me mentally and physically.
I feel like a fish out of water but not in a bad way. (Wierd I know.) This is a completely new challenge and it is what I make of it.
The first week was daunting and I found myself amongst seasoned educators and students who seemed well polished and put together.
I know life isn’t like that and it didn’t take long to realise that it was all in my mind. It used to be a coping mechanism – a way for me to back down and shy away from challenges. I used to see other people and listen to their aspirations and think “I’m nowhere near on that level of self-awareness and confidence.” And because of that, I used it as an excuse not to try.
Now it’s a completely different story. I hear people’s stories and aspirations and use that as motivation for my own life goals. Not in comparison, but an acceptance of the fact we are all in different stages of this journey and im able to achieve just as much when I put in the work.
Despite personal challenges, I’ve actually felt invigorated and challenged academically. Publishing is an exciting and everchanging subject and what I’ve learnt so far has dispelled my previous apprehension.
Don’t get me wrong I know this course and living away from home isn’t going to be a bed of roses. Life isn’t that simple. But for now, I’m looking at the positives and I’m looking forward to what’s next in this chapter.
Peace and Love ❤️😊